There are some races where I'm blown away with the experience and the support and the environment of it all. My first race this year was awesome. The atmosphere was awesome. It was for a great cause and everyone was so supportive. The more races I run, the less support I see. That's sad to me.
Anyway, the course was hilly and I wanted to seriously quit this one early. I've never really wanted to quit an actual race before, since college that is. Hills are not really my thing and if there is an uphill, shouldn't there be a downhill? My pace was way off. I quickly knew this one wasn't going to be a PR. That was kind of a letdown, but I pushed on. I talked myself up the hills. Just be strong was my new motto.
I love this picture so much
And they had free face painting. Waylon's customized pirate ship sunset was awesome. He made sure there was no pink and there HAD to be black.
I've been quiet this week. Here's why - Monday morning I got some horrible news. Our babysitter's husband was tragically killed. I won't go into the details, but this is a pretty sad time in our lives. I owe more to this woman and her family than I will ever be able to repay. She has an enormous part in raising my children. She loves and cares for them every day. Her family has a big part in that. It kills me to know that she is going through this pain.
I made the decision Sunday to take a break and breathe for at least a week before pouring myself into more intense training. Hearing this news Monday morning solidified that decision. It was time to take a break, breathe, and make sure we had our priorities straight, me especially.
Since we received this news I have been having really vivid dreams. I'm not sure I've ever really had anything like this before. There have been three things so far that I had to question whether they were a part of my dreams or if they actually happened in real life. One of them was actually recreated, which is completely crazy to me. Does that ever happen to you?
Running is on the back burner right now, for this week anyway. I want to add some intensity to my workouts to meet a goal I've set for myself, but I need some focus time first. Our week has been packed with things to do for the boys and for others, so it seems like a good time to do it. Also, Dale's birthday was yesterday. Mr. 35! I wish I could stop everything and just celebrate that for now, but we all know as parents your birthday doesn't hold quite the punch as it used to.