Saturday, March 24, 2012

Finding my happy


Endless frustration here and there


Jobs never done

The house a mess

Limited smiles crossing my face


Constant rain, wetness, lack of sunshine

For the past three days I've been unable to find my happy. I have love, but the happiness and joy have escaped. My temper has been short. My usual amount of 'let them be kids' attitude vacant. Enjoying the small moments nonexistent.

This morning I woke up with a headache. I exercised anyway. I thought it would help. Get my blood pumping in the right direction again. I hated today. I hated this morning. I hated myself.

The middle one pushing every button and taking me deeper into the hell I've been feeling. Then it was clear.

The runny nose

The constant whining

The swollen, red eyes

The aching ear

He didn't feel good either.

While the sink was full and crumbs littered the floor we molded into the chair together. Just him and me. In the middle of a beautiful, full of sunshine day we napped together. It was as if I was plugged into the wall. My battery recharged. I awoke with that happiness again. The patience renewed. The pain finally gone. Thank goodness for forgiveness. For recharging. For sunshine. For the decision to sit back and take it slow no matter the state of the environment around me.


  1. Amen.
    I am so sorry that your babe isn't feeling well.
    Confession: I love the extra snuggles I get when Chunky is sick. Although I don't want him to be, I just love that it centers me and makes me remember what is important.

    1. I love the extra cuddles too. I just wish they didn't feel so bad! The hubs is taking the youngest 2 to the Dr. God love him.



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