5 Sharp Lives: Confession

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Confession

I have a confession to make….

I can't remember the last time I cracked open my own personal bible. I know, I feel completely horrible for "saying" that "out loud". Yes, I read a devotional every day, sometimes even 2 or 3, and I do open the bible sitting in front of me when I am sitting in the pew, but I don't spend my daily bible time alone, studying, absorbing, praying, or applying. I wish I could say that I do, but I honestly don't. I guess I want things given to me in the easiest possible way they can be. I want a devotional knocking on my door, in my face, begging me to read it. I want all of the answers clearly whispered in my ear without having to take the time to go searching. It's pathetic isn't it? How I feel like my time here on earth doesn't hold room for the one who created me and has blessed me so. I pray, don't get me wrong, I pray when things are hard and when my mind is at its wits end and I expect to hear or see answers quickly. And I give thanks on occasion when my heart is so filled with love and joy. When I watch my sons run and play and be happy, I stop and stare and get teary eyed and then I thank the Lord for what he has given me temporarily.

It's not enough. I have been wondering why I don't feel like I know the Lord's way for me, but I truly already know the answer, because I haven't been asking and I haven't been reading and applying His word to my life like I should be. I claim to be a Christian and I feel that I am, but I am not the Christian that gives Christian's a good name. I am the one who is being a hypocrite. I do know one thing He has been telling me to do for a while now and that is get into His word. So, I am ready and I am willing and I am doing.

This morning I was thinking on the way to work that there has to be a website out there that has the bible online that you can read. Ha, what did I find in my email this morning? Well, it was an online bible advertisement. I clicked on it and it took me to a great site that surpassed any of my expectations and it was FREE!!! So I checked it out and it is great and I am on the road to doing what He has asked me to do. I guess He really DOES know me and how to get me up and running. He is funny like that!

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Dale

This is Dale. My Dale. The one I have spent pretty close to half of my life with. I love him. He loves God, he is strong, he provides for us, he treats me well, he makes me laugh. He's tall, dark, of course handsome, has got nice broad shoulders and a really cute butt. He is quiet and it takes quite awhile to get him to warm up, but once he does he is the best friend anyone could have. He is a great dad and his boys are his soft spot. I love spending my life with him. He makes everything ok when things are hard and he is my calm in the midst of a storm ... most of the time. I.LOVE.HIM!

Wyatt

This is our hilarious, sweet, cuddly, 5 year old boy, Wy Wy. He likes things his way and on his time. He is the best big brother around these parts. He is known to say "I love you, Mommy" out of the clear blue sky at home and in public. It's the best and usually gets quite a few "awe's" in public. He has got an amazing talent for sports already and has an arm that will surprise you. We love him to death and he brings us so much joy. He can also tell a story with the best of them and repeat almost any line from Sandlot, I know not all of them need to be repeated. He will start acting out scenes to movies at the oddest of times, but is always good for a laugh. (Click on the picture for Wyatt's birth story.)

Waylon

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Weston

This little guy is Weston. He was born on 1/25/11, 6lbs 15oz 21in. He is tall. He is already getting close to outgrowing the bassinet because of his length. He eats a ton and keeps me stressed out about my milk supply. He LOVES his brothers! You won't hear a peep out of him if one of them is holding him. They love him too! He's starting to smile and be more awake. There's nothing better than new smiles on a new face. He sleeps well at night and doesn't take too many naps during the day. He's starting to like baths. One thing you can always find him doing is squirming! He's been like this since the first time I felt him in my belly. We love what he brings to our family.

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