Ya know, last night I had a bad night. I've been in training all day at work, which is exhausting, I haven't planned meals this week, so my drive home is stressful trying to think of what we have and what I could get fixed and give myself time to workout before dinner is served at an extremely late hour. I had a pity party. My life was stressful, debt collectors call my house at 9pm desperately trying to get their money from someone else all the while waking up my kids I just threw in bed early because I couldn't take the fact that they just flooded the bathroom AGAIN. Poor, poor me. Today it was more of the same. I'm getting a headache, I'm exhausted, I still can't fully hear out of my ear, blah, blah, blah.
I put up this big talk sometimes about never quitting, about living your life to the fullest, about being your best self. It can't happen 100% of the time and we all have to be ok with that. Pull your big girl pants back up, lace up your shoes, throw a hair tie in your hair and be better tomorrow.
I was sitting here getting that pissed off at the world thought again for no good reason when I decided to catch up on some blogs I've been missing over lunch.
Wow! I know I refer you all to Amanda a lot, but there is good reason for that. She is a great writer, inspirer, and friend. She wrote about Superheros. Her superhero son and superheros in life. Such a great, great read that I can really relate to.
And then I flipped over to Kristen's. My goodness, what an inspiration. Talk about a SUPERHERO. Anything I write about it won't do it justice. I had goosebumps the entire time I read it. Watch the video too. Talk about someone being their best self in times when it was hard to be the BEST at anything at all.
I'm ashamed. Ashamed that at times I let myself get too wrapped up in my own thoughts, observations that I turn into stories, and thoughts. I make it all about me and how fed up I am at this and that. A lot of times I write here and I'm speaking mainly to myself because it is what I need to hear. Today was going to be one of those days where I just lay it out there and I was going to let you validate how we all have it hard some days and how you feel me and let me know I'm not alone. Until I read these posts, got out of my own head a little bit, and set myself straight.
We all have it hard from time to time. We all need to give ourselves a break when we aren't feeling our best self. We need to let the mountains and the valleys rise and fall so that we can do the same. We will never be our best self if we don't learn to take the steps to make it so. To turn that bad day into the best tomorrow your child has lived. To ask God for forgiveness for the poor girl you chewed out last night just for doing her job and plea that he gives her a big blessing today. To let your sons jump from the coffee table to the couch more times than you can possibly count because in their minds they are being their best self and saving lives with every superhero noise they are surprisingly good at making. They are practicing for their tomorrows as we are preparing for ours.
There is no coincidence that I read Amanda's first. There is no coincidence that Amanda's led right into Kristen's and there is no coincidence that I needed to read and hear both of them today, right now, in this moment. And there is no coincidence as to why you are reading this now.
Listen. Think. Apply - maybe this is my motto for 2013! It's becoming a pattern.
Happy thoughts, friends and happy weekend.