Congratulations, Liz Dooley. Please email me so I can get your information. I know you are going to love that Believe bracelet!!! Thanks for your comments and sharing a little about yourself! If I don't hear back from you by the end of the day I will announce a new winner tomorrow.
Thanks to all that entered and gave a snippet of what you are made of. I truly enjoyed the comments and getting to know a little piece of you better. I will respond to those comments soon if your email is connected to your profile.
In other news....
I am coming off of an awesome weekend. I won't go into all the detail because this would be an extremely long post.
- Spontaneous trip to the Rodeo on Friday night thanks to work = awesome time
- A morning with just the little men of the house = destruction while cleaning - serious destruction
- A night all alone with my man of the house completely enjoying each other at the Justin Moore/Eric Church concert and an ice cream night cap
- A great morning run, picking up the boys who were awesome for their grandparents and even better when I picked them up - that's when their moods usually turn to crap
- A great lunch with my mother-in-law and nephew at our house
- And an awesome rest of a Sunday doing nothing but being around the house
- The weather was perfect and so was my patience!
Many of you read my I Have A Lump post. I got pulled and smashed (it really is not painful where I go. Uncomfortable, yes, but not painful in the least) this morning and felt up 4 times by 4 different people. All to get the news that I have run my boobs off and now can feel my lymph node on my left side. I also have the same cyst I had last time. Still the same, no bigger, no smaller, no concern. I still have the same dense breast tissue, which is bad and puts me at a higher risk of cancer and gives the doctors a harder time finding it if it is there. But there is nothing I can do about that except to keep checking and knowing my body as well as I can. Great news in the health front, but not so great news physically.
I wasn't kidding when I said that running is the best weight loss plan you can go on. I lost 10 pounds that I didn't need to lose. None of my clothes fit and I need all new pants. My badonkadonk rear is flattening. And my boobs, eh... pathetic. I'm considering a new blog name "Running My Boobs Off". Like it? I weigh 118 pounds. I'm 5'6. I'm not bragging. I don't want to be this weight. If I could stay around 123 - 125 I would be fine. Actually I think 125 - 127 would be about perfect for me.
"She's really thin though so...", "You know that little girl that was just in there...", "You are really thin..." Do you have a scale?" All things I heard this morning. Some of it I wasn't supposed to hear, but did. My doctor seemed concerned but considering the source had me a little confused. She is shorter than me, a runner, and is definitely smaller.
So what to do, what to do? It's not like I can slap some fat in just the right areas for free. I know some of you are reading and thinking that you had my problem, but please respect the fact that not everyone is 100% happy with their bodies; too thin or too fat aside.
I don't mean to say I'm unhappy with my body. It's hard to put into words actually. I still have some cellulite on the backs of my legs, by butt isn't as firm as I would like it, but I'm finally seeing some definition in my stomach and I'm pretty happy with my legs. I know perfection just isn't given and even if you work your rear into the ground every single body is different and will shape differently. So, that athletic, toned, med sized boob body that I have in my head won't ever come 100% true.
I'm working on the acceptance part and now I will tweak where I need to tweak to get it as close to that figure in my head I see as possible... healthy and naturally.
I don't mean for all that to overshadow what is really important here. I'm thankful I got good news at the doctor today and so very thankful for your thoughts, messages, and prayers. Please make sure you are doing your exams and follow-ups!!! And put a little pink in your lives this month for those that fight and fought.