Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Training Frustration

I didn’t want to run this workout this morning since I saw it on my training sheet Sunday. Tuesday’s are track days. Speed days. My speed got lost somewhere in my 20’s and has yet to find its way back into my legs. Maybe Weston stole it all, that little booger is fast.

7 x 400’s on the track at 1:21. I can do 200’s all day. Throw a 400 in there and I feel like crying. This used to be my race. This used to be the one I could dig down and dominate. Eating up the corners and striding with strength on the back stretch. It would feel so good to come around that last corner to the home stretch. To push with everything I had to get to that finish line. The burn my butt and hamstrings would feel… I used to love it.

I kind of wished it was storming when my alarm went off. Just one little bolt of lightning? Nothing. It was so hot in the house I felt like crying again. I refuse to turn the AC on for 3 days. Refuse!! I got my stuff on and headed to the car anyway. I don’t remember the last time I was so negative about a workout. I seriously had thoughts of saying screw all of this.

Two warm up laps around the dark, lonely track. I could have only done one. It was so warm and muggy. There was a nice strong south wind on the back stretch. It is always windy at our track no matter what. I was trying to think of the best place to start. I needed to decide if I wanted the wind in my face at the beginning or if I wanted to fight it at the end. I just tried to tell myself that I have to run the entire track so it really doesn’t matter where I start and to just go already.

1:20 – This one felt so good. Felt like the old days. Maybe I can do this. 6 more…
1:24 – died at the 200 mark
1:27 – holy crap
1:28 – geeeeezzzzzzeeeee!
1:30 – seriously?

Oops! After I didn’t reach my goal in my last 5k I decided that I was going to stick to my plan 100% for the next 5 weeks to reach my goal for my last race of the season in mid Nov. I have been doing well, but I feel so tired. My legs are sore, heavy, tired. My body is tired and weak. I feel like I need more rest days. But, I’m determined to stick to it. Until today that is. I felt like crap. I was running out of time because all the time I used to try to talk myself out of the workout and I needed to decide to quit at 5 or push out 2 more. I felt that my times were just going to keep getting worse even though I switched up where I started and where I fought the wind. So pushing out 2 more wasn’t going to do me any good. I tried to tell myself that each one makes me stronger and to keep pushing. I told myself that I was going to push even if they sucked. I was done. I didn’t have anything left.

About that time the smoking jogger arrived (have I told you all about him?) and I didn’t need an audience during my death, so I called it. I walked a lap, stretched out and went home. I quit. I don’t want to start hating this. This is something I do for me. I’m supposed to enjoy this and I don’t want that to change. I felt like today could/almost did change that. I feel like a wuss.

My workouts lately have been good, but frustrating. Saturday I had to squeeze in 5m fast before dinner and it was turning dark. Our town is much livelier at this hour than my usual hour.

Saturday: 5.20 miles - 41:19 - 7:56 avg
Mile 1 7:30
Mile 2 7:59
Mile 3 9:02 – wth?
Mile 4 7:59
Mile 5 7:17

An example of one of the hills on the hilly 4.  Beautiful - yes!  Nice - NO!  There is a nice long gradual one right after this one.

Sunday 70 minute run – I only did 58 because again, I was running out of time. I felt like I was running the entire country side. This was the first time I have run with music and it helped a ton. I ran the hilly 4 and then some until my GPS went out and the music stopped back in BFE. I couldn’t take it much longer on the gravel road just hearing my footsteps and breaths. So I waved at the cows and turned around.

Sunday: 58:24 minutes - 7.39 miles - 7:54 avg
Mile 1 8:56
Mile 2 7:39
Mile 3 7:06
Mile 4 6:36
Mile 5 8:36
Mile 6 4:55
Mile 7 11:49

I’m pretty sure I did not run a 4:55 at mile 6 or ever in my life! At the end of mile 6 I was dying trying to dig up that last hill. I think my GPS had a hard time adjusting because I pushed mile 7 fast to keep my average in the 7's.

Monday – My usual 3 miles. I accidentally paused my workout for some stupid reason, so mile 2 is a guess. Anyway it was about an 8 minute average which is completely frustrating giving the fact that I have a faster pace in longer runs than I do in my shorter, supposed to be faster, runs. What the heck is going on here?! This is what makes my mind want to quit. This is what makes me say, screw racing I will just go out and run comfortably. So frustrating! So, I’m having a down training week. Hopefully next week will be better. Or maybe tomorrow’s weight day will help get back some motivation. One can only hope.

In other news, we did family pictures on Sunday – country and cute – will show you some soon. Weston DID NOT cooperate and that is why I have no professional pictures of him since he was weeks old. WEEKS OLD!!! He turns 2 in January.  See that picture of him down there to the right?  Yeah, that is totally him.  And I put up a new valance in the kitchen! Wyatt’s on the left, Waylon’s on the right. I’m going to pick their favs every week and display them here. What do you all do with your pride and joy’s work?

Have you experienced this frustration in your training?
What do you do to try to get yourself back on the horse?
Do you run with your phone using an app or do you have a GPS watch?
Do the watches have the same issues my app seems to have?


  1. I think we can all relate to this type of frustration at one time or another during a training cycle. Fortunately, they are few and far between but often the ones like this leave a stinger and it's hard to get them out of our heads! I had one track workout a month or two ago that I had to completely stop about halfway through. I went too fast on the mile repeat portion and DIED during my 1200's. I knew I wouldn't even attempt my 200's. I never (ok, rarely) quit workouts but this one was going downhill fast and mentally I had already checked out.

    You are right, that we do this for ourselves and it is meant to help us feel BETTER about ourselves- not frustrate and depress us. I think you did the right thing by calling it. Next time set yourself up for a win. (Getting the right amount of sleep, good food, plenty of water.) You may have already done this- I'm just throwing out suggestions! The little things like this help a lot physically and mentally. For me lack of sleep can pretty much kill any workout- especially any that involves speed.

    I run with the Garmin Forerunner 405. Had it for a year and a half now and love it. ($175 online on Heart Monitor USA website- although I bought mine without the heart monitor!) I LOVE this watch and would recommend it to anyone!

    1. Tia, you are awesome. Seriously! Thank you so much for being down to earth enough to share and have a discussion about running. I've come across a lot of runners who don't want to spill their secrets or be open to discussions about training and times and that frustrates me.

      I remember that post you are talking about. I actually thought about it today when I was running. I'm usually pretty strong minded and can get myself talked out of my negativity quickly, but not today. Today was awful. I don't get enough sleep or drink enough water. I'm trying in the water area and I just need to do better with the sleeping. I need to get to sleep as soon as I put the boys to bed, but I don't right now. Thank you for giving me suggestions. I'll take all you have. Any on how to level my paces out???
      Thanks as well for the watch recommendation. Maybe I will put that on my Christmas list.

  2. I used to have the Garmin version right below the one with the heart monitor. I lost it. But several years ago I think it was around $100. Anyway there are times that it would beep to let me know it had lost satellite, but then eventually would find it again. This happened with overcast or around tall buildings. The total time/distance is correct, but it can throw off your splits. If you run in circles or a lot of curves, it could reduce your distance a little. I know this from running on the track and courses where I knew the distances.

  3. Hi Tayarra! Anyone who has trained for any distance has experienced this frustration. The worst is when your attitude is bad before the run even begins...I've definitely had those days! But then there are also those days when you walk out the door with low expectations and come home feeling glorious -- whether it was because you ran a fast time or the sun came out during a grey day or you remembered something that just made you smile. In the end, the good days outnumber the bad or we wouldn't keep doing this running/racing thing, right?!

    I think what helps me get back on the horse is to read someone's inspirational blog post about a great race or run they had. It helps me to remember that feeling...and to want that feeling for myself once again...so I get back out there the next day and try again.

    Also, I know it sucks to quit but sometimes I think that is the right thing to do. Running two more repeats when you were already struggling was only going to further frustrate you and zap some energy that you need to hold onto right now. By the way, you are one of the blogs I go to when I need inspiration and it helps us all to know we have good days and bad days. Tomorrow is a new day!! :)

    1. Hey Kristen!! Yes I have had those days too where I walk out the door with a crappy mood and then find all the joy in my life with each step. I love runs like that.
      Thank you so much for your sweet comments. Thank you for always being so motivating and encouraging. Tomorrow is a totally new day.
      I think my perspective is just off. I am so busy right now and feeling like I'm running behind in every area of my life right now. I need to get things together!!! Football for my son is coming to an end and I think that will help! I will get there soon enough.

      Thanks again for your love!

  4. Gosh, I suck at blogs. But I made it here tonight. Not much I can add to all these great comments from Kristen, Sarah and Tia...some legit comments indeed. I would highly recommend getting a Garmin. I think I had the 405...maybe I still do...I'm not sure exactly what one i have... I will have to look it up. But so much more accurate than the apps. I'm so impressed with you!! Hang in there...keep training and keep inspiring us all. You have so much in there. So much. I love that you are running again!



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